Wednesday, July 26, 2006

Changes

Did you notice the template change? My old blog was green and blue and I really loved it, but when I started the second blog I wanted it to be different. I must have been very tired when I chose that pink scheme. Funny thing is, I didn't pay much attention to it, but tonight I logged in and it was staring at me with its glaring Pepto Bismalness.

Speaking of the old blog, I've noticed that more and more lately I write about life, and not just homeschooling. The old blog was titled "Simplicity in the Suburbs", and my self-criticism at the time was that I wrote too often about veganism, food, and cooking. So perhaps I don't really know what to call my blog. I'll stick with the current title, and hopefully the rest of you won't mind that many of the posts aren't about homeschooling per se, but about life, learning, laughter, and love.

Another change was our transition away from veganism. We all eat small amounts of organic pastured eggs and wild salmon, as well as other fish occasionally. No beef, pork, goat, chicken, turkey, lamb, or any other flesh except fish, and no dairy. We wouldn't eat the eggs if we couldn't find them locally and humanely raised.

We have done this for our health. Now, please spare me the lecture on how everyone can be perfectly healthy following a vegan diet, because I spouted it for years. But right now we can't. Food allergies have taken their toll and we need lean, concentrated protein to aid in our healing. A vegan diet is fantastially healthy, but not optimal for healing a leaky gut and putting some weight on a skinny 6 year old. Nothing is the way it used to be, and we can't get the same nutrition from our factory-farmed grains, beans, vegetables, and fruits as we did 100 years ago before the advent of fossil-fuel based pesticides and the depletion of our nation's topsoil.

You know, I used to worry what people would think, me going from vegan to vegetarian, back and forth, then adding in fish (after 12 years of no flesh at all), then taking it out, and so on. Now I don't care. I remember meeting a woman 14 years ago who said in a very knowing way, "I was vegetarian for 10 years". At the time I couldn't fathom how a person could make an ethical decision like that and change their mind. Now I see that there are so many shades of grey, and that even a vegan diet and lifestyle do not exist without harm to some creatures. The fields are pretty bloody after the harvester goes through, littered with the carcasses of the small animals that make each field their home. The earth is polluted with the exhaust of trucks and ships bringing us produce from around the world. To exist as a human being, as least as a human being in North America, means that others will be harmed by my existence. There is no perfection, and you can drive yourself insane trying to be "good" in every area of your life. Ask me, I know...I've been to the edge and back. I struggle with it still.

There may very well come a time when we are back to living in local communities with local economies and local food sources. While right now I can't imagine eating my friend the cow, I do know that in the end I will do what I have to do to survive, and if I have to humanely raise and slaughter an animal to keep my children and grandchildren alive I suppose I will. I hope it doesn't come to that.

Anyway, I'm not going to change the part in my profile that says I enjoy coming up with plant-based meals for my family, because I do. Most of our meals are completely free of animal products. I understand that my position isn't good enough for staunch vegans, because I've been in their (leather-free) shoes.

Other changes: I've slowly backed away from 99% of my message board and email list participation. My computer time is now focused on writing in my blog and moderating a homeschooling Yahoo! group for Enki users. I haven't time for much else. The writing feeds my soul; I have always loved writing and I have finally found that blogging allows me to share my words with the world. It is enough for me: I need to write - I don't need to be published or paid.

So the blog may take a different direction. I'll still write about holistic homeschooling, because it is a huge part of my life. But I'm also going to write about all of the other things that I think about, things that catch my fancy, things that bother me, things that bring me great joy. And maybe, just maybe, I'll figure out how to post pictures without it being a huge time consuming task.

10 comments:

Angela said...

Just wanted to say I also converted from being an ovo-lacto (for 11 years) to an omni. A long story, but again health issues. It was a very hard decision for me as well, but my health was suffering and so was my family. I swallowed my pride and I'm doing a lot better health-wise.
(BTW, I'm mamaMAMAma on MDC and PM-ed you about your enki yahoo group. I hope Beth gets my email addy to you soon)

Mama Chaos said...

I think the title works perfectly, Holistic (to me) implies a well rounded aproach, life and everythign else included.

I would love to sneak a peak at a Enki chat group. I've tried to find one but been unable. Though I'm not using it (yet) I would love to see it in action more. :)

APKimberMama said...

Right now, our Enki group is only for families who are using Enki (and who have paid for it or made an official transfer through Enki Education, Inc. While it might have been nice to open it too all families, it was decided to keep the focus small. This was we can quote Enki materials, etc. without fear of copyright issues or misrepresenting Enki to those who haven't read the materials.

There is a Yahoo! group open to everyone that is trying to get off the ground called The Intgrated Child. You'll find it if you search for Enki Education on Yahoo! groups.

Otherwise, several people, including myself and Blissful Bee (Kari) do write a lot about Enki.

APKimberMama said...

Ah Angela, swallowing my pride is the hardest part. Sometimes it feels like the "I told you so" people win if I am anything less than an exemplary vegan.

Beth will probably send me a new list this weekend.

kyra said...

hooray to you for doing what is best for you and your family! AND for hosting the new enki message board of which i am a relatively new member! i'm SO excited to be learning more about enki and how to encorporate RDI (the remediation program we use for our ASD son) into the 'web'. glad i found your blog. please feel free to come on over to mine when you are able! looking forward to reading more!

http://www.thismom.com

Blissfulbee said...

the new look is great! I support the need to discuss all things going on in your life, I find it very hard to seperate the home from the homeschool or the life from the process of our homeschooling. It all sounds good to me! :-)

Anonymous said...

Hi I was wondering if the enki group is only open to those doing grade one and up? I have been doing enki k for two years, am in the process of buying the enki grade one as well right now so maybe when that goes through I'll be able to join that group..

Thanks I love your blog!

Rebecca in Ontario

APKimberMama said...

Rebecca, our group is open to people working will all grades. It's slightly complicated though, as we chosen to keep the group to people who have purchased their materials from Enki, or by transfer (the first 6 weeks that someone can sell Enki if they decide not to use it). Old resources or new resources are fine. If you feel you qualify you can email Beth and ask her to pass along your email address.

Unfortunately, right now, we have chosen not to open membership to those who bought their materials second hand, or to the group of people who received new materials but neither paid for them nor sent them back. The main reason for this is so we can have a verification process and not open the group to people who don't have Enki materials.

The group is not sponsored by Enki Education, Inc. and Enki Education, Inc. provides no moderation.

Anonymous said...

Hi Kimberley

Thanks I emailed Beth so hopefully she will get my email to you soon. I'm excited. My grade one purchase went through on Friday so it will be mailed today. I can't wait.

Rebecca

APKimberMama said...

Great, I look forward To you joining our conversations!

I get a new list about once a week.